ICE CREAM!!!!!

Woots! Mango, Lemon/Lime, Mixed berries sorbet! All in 2 tubs! I'm gonna get fat ahha. But who cares, I'm already fat. :P

Good luck to those who're taking their O's and A's soon! Though O's already started. Haha.
Yay Xuannie received my card today! When i posted it 2 days ago (thursday). Jiayou Xuannie! <3
Good luck to my sister with her A's too!

I'm sick! Nooo.. But I'm sure I'm getting better day by day :D


It's ranting time.
[rant=start]
Group mate A is getting on my nerves. Seriously. Excuses excuses excuses is all she can ever give. Her skin is so thick she elected herself as the group "leader", when she can never get the job right. She replaces the word "visits" with "visitations". Hellooooo, it's a presentation, that should be as summarized and simplified as possible. All she wants to do is to show off her "English" and "Vocabulary". Argh.

I slept at 2am yesterday because I was trying to send my RS mentor a copy and paste email from 12am to 2am. I fell asleep every 10seconds. That was how bushed I was... And group mate A just keeps complaining and complaining. "I will send the email to NEA by today." Turned out, she only sent it a month+ later. "I tried to contact you yesterday and since I don't have the powerpoint slides I can't do anything." Did she try to contact me? No. Did she get the powerpoint slides from group mate B when she was contactable? No. And here she is blaming me for everything. "For your information I slept at 2am yesterday because I had to pack for my flight". Yala yalah, you very rich, everyday fly here fly there one right? Excuses excuses excuses. When are you going to fly? School is 2 weeks from ending, competition is 1 week away. Fly what fly. Bullshit.
-Stuffs fist up her throat-
This way she can both suffocate and shut up. Yay.
[/rant]


Talent Vogue yesterday was fun! But I had to stone for 5hours in class yesterday while waiting for it to start. Lol, at least I had Chomby and Siyuan to accompany for the first 3hours :D

I scream, you scream, we scream for ICE CREAM! :D

Crap.

I thought post exams would be the best time of the year. But noo..

1. Get scolded by teachers over RS repeatedly over and over and over and over again.
2. SAP shit
3. worries
4. frustration at RS and the number of stuff and decisions I've to do/make.
5. sadness - SAP vs CCA
6. crap - Lots and lots of it.
7. Angry at team mate for NOT KNOW WHAT MSN IS. Now our group has an enormous miscommunication problem.
8. Sick
9. Boredom - non-existent now.

Argh.

Sucks.

So my self expectations have always been surprisingly low. I was pretty contented with a 3.43 gpa but when I found out the number of people who scored 3.5<, all I could think of was "I suck". I promise myself I'll work much harder next year.

SAP. Again. I received a slip in the morning saying "SAP for sec 3s next year will be on Wednesdays". Sorry about this but, wtf. I've CCA on Wednesdays, and I wouldn't want to spend 2 years of my life without any CCA points. SAP would be on 3 Wednesdays a month, meaning I'd only have 25% attendance for CCA. I need to meet the darn 75% quota! Am I supposed to make the decision of giving up SAP now? Giving up this perfect chance I have dangling right in front of me? This just sucks.

I guess Ms Tan was right. It was unfortunate for us to enter ISO. Very unfortunate. It was also unwise of her to pick us to take up this darn project. Everything just sucks alright, I get it. She raised quite a few points on how our project sucked and stuff, and I realised, yeah of course each of us were at wrong, but not entirely. I can confidently conclude that 80% of the problems were caused by this member of the group, and let's name her A. She 'does' her work, but instead of helping she causes all the trouble. To add things on, her work are all 'cut-and-paste' or to "chimify" the language. Total crap. Like hello, this is a Biology research studies, not a OhMyEnglishIsSoGreat project.

Everything sucks the moment I thought it'd be alright.
This is the time when I realise that I'll never get the same comfort I used to get when I needed it.

Special Arts Programme

I got recommended by teacher to do SAP (Special Arts Programme). I'm both exhilarated and worried. I sat down to draw just now and I realised I'm not all that good. I felt like crushing and crumpling everything I drew just now. Maybe I should stop being so pessimistic.
Stop worrying lisa!
I really want to get into SAP. I mean, I love art. 60% of my personal life is art. I do my work, feel sian, what do I do? Draw. I listen to class, get bored, what do I do? Draw. If all my artwork were to be compiled together I'm guessing it'd, I don't know, pile high high up. Haha.
I've loved art since I was a kid. My mom said I used to pick up colour pencils and start doodling on paper whenever I had the chance. I remember I once threw a tantrum at Marine Parade because my mother pulled me away from watching this artist draw. I believed I would have spent the whole night there just watching him draw. It was just amazing. I fell in love with the wonder of pencils/ colour pencils/ markers. The every stroke and line, even the strength you use to exert on the pencil comes into consideration. What the final result can be is just the most amazing thing ever.
I've to thank my 2 special friends, Vanessa and Ryan for really sparking that love for art I always had in me. Vanessa used to draw magnificent portraits of people and I've to give her 5 thumbs up. Once she showed me her mother's drawings and I was determined to be able to draw that. Though I've failed in many many many attempts, I'm never gonna give up. (: Ryan has taught me the basics to drawing and I really worked from it. He totally changed my view point of art. I moved from fail-portraits of humans to anime/cartoons. I started picking up strokes and lines and depth etc, and here I am now.

Don't mind my language, I know my grammar/vocab plainly sucks. I just got laughed at on facebook cause of a wrong usage of 1 simple word. Heck it. Language is the bain of my life.
I've had 3.6< gpa for everything else except language - English, Chinese, Literature, Japanese. I just can't score high enough for my language. It seems all so alien to me, I'm more of a Maths Science person I guess.
Kay, what an abrupt change of topic. I really hope I'd do well for the interview and get accepted into SAP. My life would have a really good meaning. :D


I found this picture on the web. Really cute. :D
私はがんばらなくてはいけません。 (Do not babelfish this, it's very inaccurate.)
Meaning: I must jiayou. Ahaha my direct translation!

Wenting is so hilarious! I love her in my RS group. (: Too bad she says she's leaving next year... Ohwells. Her emails always make my day.
Wenting: ISO nervous.Get it? I so nervous? lol
ISO is a competition our group got sabo-ed into..

I overheard this darn Redcross guy's conversation on the MRT home just now. He was complaining how useless and 'jialat' RJC girls were at canoeing.
Notice: girls.
Such an MCP! These kind of people deserve to dieeee. He said "Raffles JC 有学历,没有学问. Just throw them in the sea see how they swim HAHAHA". Like come on, if you don't get the grapes, stop calling them sour. I hope the girls stand up for their rights and bash him up with their paddles.
If he doesn't want anybody scolding/complaining him on a world-wide internet page, just lower his volume while on the phone. The whole cabin could hear his every word. Inconsiderate asses.


I'm guessing I have these phobias:
1. Automatonophobia- Fear of ventriloquist's dummies, animatronic creatures, wax statues - anything that falsly represents a sentient being.
2. Arachibutyrophobia- Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth.
3. Achluophobia- Fear of darkness.
4. Autophobia- Fear of being alone or of oneself.
5. Cleithrophobia- Fear of being enclosed.
6. Doxophobia- Fear of expressing opinions or of receiving praise.
7. Enosiophobia- Fear of having committed an unpardonable sin or of criticism.
8. Gelotophobia- Fear of being laughed at.
9. Helminthophobia- Fear of being infested with worms.
10. Pediophobia- Fear of dolls.
11. Phasmophobia- Fear of ghosts.
12. Philophobia- Fear of falling in love or being in love.
13. Pupaphobia - Fear of puppets.
14. Rhabdophobia- Fear of being severely punished or beaten by a rod, or of being severely criticized. Also fear of magic.
15. Scopophobia- Fear of being seen or stared at.

I can't believe I went through the entire list of phobias!
Taken from: http://www.phobialist.com/#A-



I wanna adopt a bunny! Chomby has one and it's adorable! But the adoption process is far too tedious, and I'm guessing my parents wouldn't allow me to.
www.hrss.net


Maltese! Aren't they just cute? :D I always see them in the Pet Safari at Eastpoint, but not today ):

My sister plans to buy a Yorkshire Terrier after she gets her 3rd month pay. It's totally fine with me! Maybe I'll sponsor her $100, who knows? ;)

Brown porridge for dinner today. Yummy.

1. I survived 4 talks! Awesome.
First talk: Bother Chomby
Second talk: Sleep
Third talk: Draw + Help Stephy with tying her friendship band
Fourth talk: Slept + Listened

2. Xinyu is the funniest person ever when it comes to the game 'Heartattack'.

3. If only I mastered the art of dreaming. I'd dream all about what and who I wanna do or see. I'd be contented enough.

4. I need one of those Steve monkey translators. So I'd listen to my heart, not my brain. I just can't seem to differentiate between their voices ya know. They're just too similar.

It's terrifying how a seed will mature and eventually branch out into many thin and insignificant twigs, or thick and sturdy boughs over time. A thousand leaves, maybe ten thousand, a million? Ten million? They're just simply uncountable.
I never knew trees could play such perfect analogies. Such as "the root of the problem", roots emerge from the seeds too, slowly digging deeper down, down, and down.
All I really want to say is, it simply scares me how one problem could lead to thousands, or maybe just too many too count. Sometimes, the problems may not even resemble each other in one way or another.



Having 4 talks in a row tomorrow. I should go sleep now.

[b]Everybody says this analogy is un-lisa cause it's too chim T________T[b]

I figured no matter what history two people have between them, they can still be friends. All it takes is for someone to take the first step. And that first step is really worth it, even though you might not think it is.

:) / :(

I went rollerblading yesterday at Pasir Ris! One word: awesome. I loved rollerblading so much I really wanna go again! Planning to go once more probably this Saturday, but I've some activities on. ): We spent 50% of the time taking pictures and 25% of the time taking pictures of the ground.
We even caught this darn photo-tastic picture of the floor+patches of grass:

See what I mean. Fail timer shots. Haha! (Note the rollerblades right at the top of the picture.)


Now, to examination results.. Average, :(

1. Yesterday: sucked. Got my Chinese, Zuowen, Geography, Mathematics results yesterday. Mathematics was kind of disappointing but still quite satisfactory I have to say. A straight on A, 75%. I realised that my expectations have increased significantly, I guess that's really good in the long run. (:

2. Today: Oh HAPPY DAY! Oh happy day~ We got back our English, Compo, Literature, History and Integrated Science. The rest were I-really-don't-know-what-to-say, but Science was THE BEST EVER! I topped the class for this certain paper. I was both shocked and exhilarated when I heard the marks some people of my class got. I never expected myself to finally get top in something! I wonder if I've finally improved, cause this test was kinda on common sense. (Does that mean that I've the most common sense? ;) Lol.) Finally something to let me feel proud of. :D

Me: I can't believe I got highest in class! -grins-
Ms Tan: You want me to pinch you? -reaches out-
Me: No no no hahaha!

I'm still amazed at my composition grade. 22/30 is a total WOW IS MY ENGLISH THIS POWDERFUL?!


I should really stop judging others based on what they seem to be on the outside. That just sucks, I feel so stupid and bad for doing so! My perceptions of others are really foiled. It's amazing how just by opening up your mind and eyes, you'd see how wonderful others/life could really be.


Hai guyz, now that my blog has finally been discovered to be alive and kicking again, I'll throw in these few pictures to put that little smile on your faces. :D

Left to right: Me, Steph, Jermaine, Bridget
Xinyu and Therese already went home ):

Left to right: Steph, Jermaine, Therese, Bridget, Me
Therese's in here! But Xinyu took the picture. Hold on lemme find a picture with Xinyu in it...

Left to right: Xinyu, Bridget, Steph, Jermaine, Me
Xinyu's the only un-cameo. >D

I was pretty tired out.. Bathed and went to sleep the moment I got home (:

Too shy, too scared, too gutless.

Yeah thats me. All I've ever done is to open the chatbox, look at it for awhile, think about stuff, then close it back down. Sometimes I make progress by typing some stuff in, then closing it back down. Awesome. I feel ashamed of myself for repeatedly making 'speeches' coming genuinely from the heart, and try to make up even though I know it'll never do. And yeah, they never do. Lol.
I never expected a total make up, I just want us to be friends again. But instead I created even more awkwardness between us. I gotta remember that things aren't the same anymore, people change and feelings change. Neither do I myself feel the same as I did before. I have already stopped lying to myself, thinking that everything would go back to how it was before, like how I used to take you for granted.. "Oh we'll get back together again after sometime, no worries." Because that time was different..
Shit.
Perhaps you feel the same way too. Perhaps we both should each take a time out. Things will get better some day.

I just can't stand seeing us like that before and after. We used to talk all day, about everything under the sun. Now all that's left are chain messages or a good luck/happy birthday. Gotta accept the fact that some friends last forever, and some friends provide you with just temporary happiness. Few years down the road, we won't be able to remember anything anymore. We'll brush past each other down a busy road and not recognise each other.

Don't worry, I didn't post this because I'm sad about the whole thing. I'm just disappointed that it ended up this way. I've no intentions anymore.

For once I hope nobody's loyal to me and reads my blog. Lol.

P.S.: After typing this load of crap, I kinda hate myself. I feel so stupid!

1. I'm getting my results back tomorrow! I'm not prepared yet! I wanna show my mom I can do it but I'm really scared D: Sigh.. All the best to me then.

2. Going rollerblading tomorrow with Bridget and Steph and others.. I'm not very sure who yet. It's gonna be near Pasir Ris park, I've forgotten how the place looks like o'ready :D

3. I keep forgetting what I wanna blog about. Hmm I think I should really start noting stuff down on my phone.

4. Why are all my online friends' private messages Chinese?!
"雨过天晴"
"但偏偏，雨渐渐,"
"晴天、雨天。"
Did it rain today? Lol.

5. Life is really so unpredictable. And all my life I've thought otherwise. I should stop following my brain, thinking is bad for my life!

Subway's waiting for me!

Today was a very awesome day! :D

Woke up at 12pm (I found it really early D:) and headed to Bugis for lunch. Pepper lunch is really nice! But it gets a little "je-raat" after awhile hmm... I got myself a blank jotter book! Yay! Drawing cum jap cum etc notebook. Then my Sister and Mum insisted we go to Vivo and get some bracelets for presents, and I'm so glad I tagged along. I spent 14bucks on the arcade there and we each ate 2scoops of gelato at the basement, AWESOME!

Why did the boy throw the butter out of the window?
...
Cause he wanted to see a butterfly! HA HA HA HA HA

It was dinner time, hooray. My sis wanted Fish&Co cause I owe a meal to her... She helped me with 2 projects (you see how calculative she is?! Haha.) Now I'm finally home! And my eyes hurt a lot. Still hurting. My contact lenses are at their 30th day, and mine are monthly lenses. Ow they hurttttt, they were so red (still are)! I need sleep, now now now! But I'm too bloated for it. xD
I've been eating excessively these few days. C'mon, food = destresser! Now that I'm feeling so much better, I think I should really cut down on food intake, argh. But I wanna grow. How how how?

I should start studying maybe next week or so. My mom has been nagging at me all day long "qu du shu la! Everyday play play play not sian ah?" In fact, I am very sian. I've got nothing better to do! LOL.
1. Piano
2. Guitar
3. TV
4. Drawing
4. Computer
5. Sleeping
6. Eating
7. Bothering my sis/mom

And I can do all that in less than a day. What else do I do for the rest of the day? D:

Caught the movie Surrogates yesterday with Steph and Siyuan at j8 after checking my jap papers. It was a very cool movie, especially at the part where all the surrogates were shut down and the robots all collapsed to the ground. Very synchronized :D I guess I would give it 4.5 stars, not as amusing as Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs.

45.4/100 for the EOY jap paper. I've to say, I'm really contented and happy with that. I mean, just 4.6 more marks for a pass! I was expecting a 30-40 haha. The better news is, I passed jap for overall. 54.43/100 if I'm not wrong. Darn it just a little bit more for a 2.4, ohwells. I've got my lit to cover up for my jap, but my lit ain't that good either.. >_> Literature is such a useless subject! Why do we even have to learn shakespeare in depth to survive? So as to express ourselves better? Like "In sooth I know not why I am so fat"? Lol.

I finally decided to take a bath yesterday at 1.30am. During the night/morning are the times where my head is clearer and stuff. I guess I'm non-afternoon person. Thought about some stuff and realised that I've been really gullible for the past years. Good things don't come by easily. I never realised how hard everything was to be able to finally work out. All the time I thought "like that la", "like this la", "what else", "why cannot". I once thought I got the idea of "it would never happen, so I'll bite the bullet and move on", but apparently I never did. I hanged in there, and what a very wrong move it was. So I'm letting go, falling, then landing gracefully and walking away. Who knows, the grass below may be greener. (:

Tempers? Mood swings?

So which is better?

1. Boiling up fast, cooling down fast.
2. Boiling up slow, cooling down slow.
3. Boiling up fast, cooling down slow.
4. Boiling up slow, cooling down fast.

Apparently option 4's the ideal choice to take. Unfortunately, I'm option 1. Whenever you see me pissed/ sad/ emo-ing, just give me a night, or an hour, or maybe just a few minutes. I'll think things out and come to a sensible conclusion, at the very least, get my thoughts out straight. I really don't wanna hurt anybody anymore. I don't wanna say what I don't mean. I don't want anymore misunderstandings.

A fire extinguisher gets sprayed on me every minute. Little by little. Time taken for me to cool down depends on the level of stress. I should really stop blabbering nonsense when I'm stressed out. I should just keep everything to myself, scream into a pillow, get a robotic friend who doesn't give any emotional answers, get a life sized thingy for me to punch. At least I've a blog to rant to now... I should not vomit out whatever comes to my mind, just so I would feel better, and not realise that others feel bad about it. I suck so badly.

Reminder to self: NEVER. Tell. Anybody. How. I. Feel. (before things are properly processed through my mind after some time)
Everything just ends up screwed in the end.

I wonder if I should name today a good day or a bad day.

Firstly, I got a booking from Alagu just because I was drinking Nutritea at the netball court.. >_> This means 2 detentions for me. What a waste of 2 hours, writing two dumb reflections. Great. If I were to be the principal, I'd scrape the handphone/food rule. It's so impractical to not be able to drink sweet drinks after playing an hour of netball, I mean come on, it's just a drink. My mouth doesn't have a leaking hole you know. Argh, it's going to be the end of the school year, and I thought I could happily run off with just 1 detention.

Sometimes, things you deem insignificant may change a person's life. I still recall the days in primary school - PE was the lesson I hated most, not because I had to run, not because I didn't like the teacher. It was because of the people I had to play with. I would always be the last one to get chosen into a group, or should I say I'd never got chosen. Then what would I do for the rest of the hour? Haha, I'd sit alone watching them play and when teacher asked me why I wasn't playing, all I'd say would be "stomach pain". What hurts the most is when you see your close friend being the team leader and he/she never takes a look at you, not more choose you on the team. It really hurts.
Today changed everything. As usual I planned to sit aside to watch my classmates play netball, but this time it was different: "Lisa you wanna play?" "Want!" That changed everything.
"We choose group okay?"
Wow. That one powerful line. But the thing is, I got chosen soon enough! Ahha! Man was I happy haha. I really like RGS, it feels like family to me. CKPS feels so strangerish, and always did. I never liked anyone from there, except for my close friends, neither did anybody like me. It served as a place for me to receive education from, and spend half a day there. Nothing like a home. RGS is totally different, it serves as a 2nd home to me, the people there are awesome and nice, I feel loved there. xD

Ohman I screwed my latin dance exam up but ohwells, all I'd get is certificate, it doesn't matter much, haha.

Steph, Chomby, Alagu, Arathi, Pavithra, Sandra and I went out for FREE PIZZA!! Well the story's complicated but in short, it was Alagu's parents' treat (: Thanks! But right, it's in Choa Chu Kang, wow. Next destination, some Country Club opposite of Swiss Cottage Secondary!
We took a bus we weren't sure off to Bukit Gombak. The bus driver lady promised to call us when we reach but nooooo, when we arrived at Boon Lay interchange we asked her if we got on the right bus and all she said was "aiyo, I forgot." Lol.
Ohwells, we took the MRT in the end, so much more trustworthy don't you think so? The Country Club was A-W-E-S-O-M-E! We wanted to play laser tag but the room was packed and the guy at the counter said room was only available at 5pm. It was 4pm.

Steph: So... the rooms will only be free at 5pm?
Guy: Yeap! But not free la, you've to pay.
>________________________________________________>"

Yeah and I suggested bowling first. Hilarious ball rolling.
Laser tag at 5pm was tiring but very worth it! "You can run but you can't hide!" The vest would vibrate when you 'die' and it's really ticklish.
Left Bukit Gombak at 6pm and stank up the MRT for a whole hour. Well, at least I think I stink. I had OBS check up, netball, dance exam, bowling and laser tag in one uniform. Stinky!

The best will always be saved for the last.
I GREW 2CM HAHAHAHAHA! Okay to some people it may seem like a "chey so what?" but to me it's a miracle. I haven't been growing for quite some time already but now it's 2cm! Yay! Perhaps it's cause I've been stuffing myself with food these few days. The downside of this is that I've gained 3kg, and that's just bad.
BUT WHO CARES ANYWAY xD It's 2cm!

P.S: I feel like I'm slowly slipping away from the people I'm close to. I know this is contradictory towards what I said, but I'm starting to realize and find out things I've never knew. I don't think finding those things out is a good thing though.
1. If you prefer that box, stop trying to stuff this ball into it. It will never fit, okay? They just don't match. Just go fit in that box all you want.
2. Sucks when feelings aren't returned ):
Am I really not likeable? Why am I always the backup? Why's there no one person who I can tell everything to without feeling weird and getting the answers I really want?

Looking back at my past posts... I really wonder if I've changed.
I wanna be who I was before, year 2007.

Changed blogskin/ Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs!

I thought that since exams were finally over, I'd revive this blog.
1. It'll be easy to kill time, which I currently have loads at hand.
2. I'll be practising my suckish English at the same time.
3. I'll have a place to rant, be prepared to face many metaphors (I guess).
4. A place to release my random thoughts I never had a chance to express.
I'll try my best to keep it alive, perhaps till the start of next year.

Shall start off with a movie I watched with Siyuan today.
Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs
5 stars!★★★★★

Personally I feel that it's the awesomest, lamest, randomest movie I've ever watched. I facepalmed/laughed the whole way through. It's based on a book, which I haven't read, but the plot is really nice!

Brent: I am a chicken!

Earl Devereaux: [addressing Flint] Why can't you be more like my son, Cal?
Cal Deveraux: 'Sup.

Passer-by: You are going to be crushed by a giant corn.

Manny: No, I am a comedian.

Tim Lockwood: Son, not every sardine was meant to swim.
Young Flint: I don't understand fishing metaphors, dad!

Sam Sparks: You may have seen a meteor shower, but I bet you've never seen a shower "meatier" than this.

Steve: Gummi bears!

Earl Devereaux: You see this contact lens?
Flint Lockwood: Yeah?
Earl Devereaux: This contact lens represents you! And my eye represents my eye!
[Puts on contact lens]
Earl Devereaux: I've got my *eye* on you!

I can't get enough of the quotes!

Steve!
(Watch the movie to get the quotes!)