Dragonflies haunt me.

These 2 songs are both on my tabs. Love it.

Lifehouse - You and Me


Lifehouse - You and Me


No special meaning in them. Perhaps they did before, but not anymore. ^^

I GOT A HEART ATTACK NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
I received an sms from Miss Tan saying:
We have a reporter comin down to WELL tomor during a teachers' seminar with other sch. The principal would like students to share and i tot your group would be a good choice. Could your group come from 2 to 5 to share your project? Pls bring your poster and your power point. I have a lap top
/faint

1. Powerpoint powerpoint. Ramya's out of Singapore. She has the slides.
2. Meet in school at 8am to do a run through and get the poster.
3. Reporters?! What did you just say?!
4. Another presentation? I had enough of presentations nooooo. They haunt meeee!
5. Phew.. this event isn't formal.
I will survive.

I dreamt of you talking to me the night before. It was really weird, I have to say.
"I could breathe" < Ahaha funny quote from Jason.
You talked, then I talked, and you talked again, but it wasn't to me. Then you talked again, I replied, and you never said anything ever again. Perhaps that's just the round-up of things - two years ago till now. Yeah, and referring to my previous post, I think I'm less than a thread away now. It took me 2 cold hard years. I even screwed my life up inbetween. Oh well, it's all fine. Afterall, it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
Yes, you're right, there are many other guys out there that's good too, but I can't swipe my hand through the crowd and pick up some rubbish can I? I'm gonna take things slow and steady, good riddance to these kinda stuff. For now I'll go KANAME/ ZERO/ IDOU/ AKATSUKI/ ICHOU AHAHAHA!
Ohno I think I've found a target, but it's kinda impossible so...
forget, forget, forget

I'm baaack! :D

Heyo! Sorry for the short hiatus I got there.. I guess I've got lesser to rant and lesser to emo about. My days are getting better you see. (:

I've started to actually sit down and think things through, without ending my whole thinking process with a "so, why?". My questions subsequently get answered and I'm really happy with it. Finally, I've been waiting for this day since.. about a year ago? Which was after I realised something really important. I've never been able to accept the truth, but now I have! Yay. Okay, so I'm getting really close to my target. Like, really close. I'm only a thread away from it! Ahh!


Lemme post some really random stuffs that happened the past few days.

1. My dragonflies team'09 won the gold award for presentation and commendation for poster at ISO held in Republic Polytechnic. During those 3 days of non-stop competition, I kept bothering my friend who studied there. Fun. (: And there were other fun stuff too.. [nudges yuannie]

2. ACP is tomorrow and is our class ready for it? No! I think. The classroom looks really bare except for the trash bags and my drawn-on bonfire. Lol.
"The guy and girl are both naked." Kay thanks for the info, I know that. I'm just too lazy to draw clothes for them.
"The sun set looks like a rainbow." You so smart you come draw la! )<

3. I love wenting, seriously. She's hilarious! She drew a mosquito feeding on the guy's blood. I'm like rofl. Yeah I know, Hawaii probably has many mosquitoes there.

4. No Siyuan, I'm not accepting your proposal on Facebook. No matter how much you wanna get married to me, I'll never accept it. In your face! Wahaha!

5. I remember I used to make little/big powder cubes/balls when I was young.. Hmm I really miss making them. It's amazing how water+powder can form a thick mushy sandy thingy that you can shape. Just like dough. I stopped doing it cause my mom said I was wasting powder.. ): But I really like making powder cubes! They fascinate me.

6. Heyhey omegle.com is cool! Though some people are really boring, like me, some are really cool. (: But I hate how they go "hi, asl". Despo much. I disconnect them, hah!

7. School's coming to an end and everyone's going separate ways. ): Well, not very far away of course. We could still meet up during free blocks and stuff, but I'm sure things will not be the same no more.. D: Darn, I don't like making new friends cause I ain't good at it. Noo!

8. JLPT's about a month away. This is bad. Real bad.

9. Wow I'm at number 9 already? Cool! Adam Lambert's "Time for Miracles" is a really nice song. It comes from the movie 2012, and speaking of 2012, the "oh-the-world's-coming-to-an-end thing", I say it's bullshit. They said the world would end at year 2000 but, hello! I'm still here. Lol, choi choi. But nevertheless, I really wanna watch the movie 2012 and see what it'll supposedly be like. According to Jialin the movie geek, the mega structures would collapse and cause great catastrophes. Wow.

10. I've got to cut down on electricity bills. Sad. ): I wanna get a job but I'm only 14! Whyy!

11. Good luck to all O level + A level students out there! I know O level's already coming to an end so jiayou! All the best to my sister with her A levels! :D

Hope I don't go MIA again. Yeah.

ICE CREAM!!!!!

Woots! Mango, Lemon/Lime, Mixed berries sorbet! All in 2 tubs! I'm gonna get fat ahha. But who cares, I'm already fat. :P

Good luck to those who're taking their O's and A's soon! Though O's already started. Haha.
Yay Xuannie received my card today! When i posted it 2 days ago (thursday). Jiayou Xuannie! <3
Good luck to my sister with her A's too!

I'm sick! Nooo.. But I'm sure I'm getting better day by day :D


It's ranting time.
[rant=start]
Group mate A is getting on my nerves. Seriously. Excuses excuses excuses is all she can ever give. Her skin is so thick she elected herself as the group "leader", when she can never get the job right. She replaces the word "visits" with "visitations". Hellooooo, it's a presentation, that should be as summarized and simplified as possible. All she wants to do is to show off her "English" and "Vocabulary". Argh.

I slept at 2am yesterday because I was trying to send my RS mentor a copy and paste email from 12am to 2am. I fell asleep every 10seconds. That was how bushed I was... And group mate A just keeps complaining and complaining. "I will send the email to NEA by today." Turned out, she only sent it a month+ later. "I tried to contact you yesterday and since I don't have the powerpoint slides I can't do anything." Did she try to contact me? No. Did she get the powerpoint slides from group mate B when she was contactable? No. And here she is blaming me for everything. "For your information I slept at 2am yesterday because I had to pack for my flight". Yala yalah, you very rich, everyday fly here fly there one right? Excuses excuses excuses. When are you going to fly? School is 2 weeks from ending, competition is 1 week away. Fly what fly. Bullshit.
-Stuffs fist up her throat-
This way she can both suffocate and shut up. Yay.
[/rant]


Talent Vogue yesterday was fun! But I had to stone for 5hours in class yesterday while waiting for it to start. Lol, at least I had Chomby and Siyuan to accompany for the first 3hours :D

I scream, you scream, we scream for ICE CREAM! :D

Crap.

I thought post exams would be the best time of the year. But noo..

1. Get scolded by teachers over RS repeatedly over and over and over and over again.
2. SAP shit
3. worries
4. frustration at RS and the number of stuff and decisions I've to do/make.
5. sadness - SAP vs CCA
6. crap - Lots and lots of it.
7. Angry at team mate for NOT KNOW WHAT MSN IS. Now our group has an enormous miscommunication problem.
8. Sick
9. Boredom - non-existent now.

Argh.

Sucks.

So my self expectations have always been surprisingly low. I was pretty contented with a 3.43 gpa but when I found out the number of people who scored 3.5<, all I could think of was "I suck". I promise myself I'll work much harder next year.

SAP. Again. I received a slip in the morning saying "SAP for sec 3s next year will be on Wednesdays". Sorry about this but, wtf. I've CCA on Wednesdays, and I wouldn't want to spend 2 years of my life without any CCA points. SAP would be on 3 Wednesdays a month, meaning I'd only have 25% attendance for CCA. I need to meet the darn 75% quota! Am I supposed to make the decision of giving up SAP now? Giving up this perfect chance I have dangling right in front of me? This just sucks.

I guess Ms Tan was right. It was unfortunate for us to enter ISO. Very unfortunate. It was also unwise of her to pick us to take up this darn project. Everything just sucks alright, I get it. She raised quite a few points on how our project sucked and stuff, and I realised, yeah of course each of us were at wrong, but not entirely. I can confidently conclude that 80% of the problems were caused by this member of the group, and let's name her A. She 'does' her work, but instead of helping she causes all the trouble. To add things on, her work are all 'cut-and-paste' or to "chimify" the language. Total crap. Like hello, this is a Biology research studies, not a OhMyEnglishIsSoGreat project.

Everything sucks the moment I thought it'd be alright.
This is the time when I realise that I'll never get the same comfort I used to get when I needed it.

Special Arts Programme

I got recommended by teacher to do SAP (Special Arts Programme). I'm both exhilarated and worried. I sat down to draw just now and I realised I'm not all that good. I felt like crushing and crumpling everything I drew just now. Maybe I should stop being so pessimistic.
Stop worrying lisa!
I really want to get into SAP. I mean, I love art. 60% of my personal life is art. I do my work, feel sian, what do I do? Draw. I listen to class, get bored, what do I do? Draw. If all my artwork were to be compiled together I'm guessing it'd, I don't know, pile high high up. Haha.
I've loved art since I was a kid. My mom said I used to pick up colour pencils and start doodling on paper whenever I had the chance. I remember I once threw a tantrum at Marine Parade because my mother pulled me away from watching this artist draw. I believed I would have spent the whole night there just watching him draw. It was just amazing. I fell in love with the wonder of pencils/ colour pencils/ markers. The every stroke and line, even the strength you use to exert on the pencil comes into consideration. What the final result can be is just the most amazing thing ever.
I've to thank my 2 special friends, Vanessa and Ryan for really sparking that love for art I always had in me. Vanessa used to draw magnificent portraits of people and I've to give her 5 thumbs up. Once she showed me her mother's drawings and I was determined to be able to draw that. Though I've failed in many many many attempts, I'm never gonna give up. (: Ryan has taught me the basics to drawing and I really worked from it. He totally changed my view point of art. I moved from fail-portraits of humans to anime/cartoons. I started picking up strokes and lines and depth etc, and here I am now.

Don't mind my language, I know my grammar/vocab plainly sucks. I just got laughed at on facebook cause of a wrong usage of 1 simple word. Heck it. Language is the bain of my life.
I've had 3.6< gpa for everything else except language - English, Chinese, Literature, Japanese. I just can't score high enough for my language. It seems all so alien to me, I'm more of a Maths Science person I guess.
Kay, what an abrupt change of topic. I really hope I'd do well for the interview and get accepted into SAP. My life would have a really good meaning. :D


I found this picture on the web. Really cute. :D
私はがんばらなくてはいけません。 (Do not babelfish this, it's very inaccurate.)
Meaning: I must jiayou. Ahaha my direct translation!

Wenting is so hilarious! I love her in my RS group. (: Too bad she says she's leaving next year... Ohwells. Her emails always make my day.
Wenting: ISO nervous.Get it? I so nervous? lol
ISO is a competition our group got sabo-ed into..

I overheard this darn Redcross guy's conversation on the MRT home just now. He was complaining how useless and 'jialat' RJC girls were at canoeing.
Notice: girls.
Such an MCP! These kind of people deserve to dieeee. He said "Raffles JC 有学历,没有学问. Just throw them in the sea see how they swim HAHAHA". Like come on, if you don't get the grapes, stop calling them sour. I hope the girls stand up for their rights and bash him up with their paddles.
If he doesn't want anybody scolding/complaining him on a world-wide internet page, just lower his volume while on the phone. The whole cabin could hear his every word. Inconsiderate asses.


I'm guessing I have these phobias:
1. Automatonophobia- Fear of ventriloquist's dummies, animatronic creatures, wax statues - anything that falsly represents a sentient being.
2. Arachibutyrophobia- Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth.
3. Achluophobia- Fear of darkness.
4. Autophobia- Fear of being alone or of oneself.
5. Cleithrophobia- Fear of being enclosed.
6. Doxophobia- Fear of expressing opinions or of receiving praise.
7. Enosiophobia- Fear of having committed an unpardonable sin or of criticism.
8. Gelotophobia- Fear of being laughed at.
9. Helminthophobia- Fear of being infested with worms.
10. Pediophobia- Fear of dolls.
11. Phasmophobia- Fear of ghosts.
12. Philophobia- Fear of falling in love or being in love.
13. Pupaphobia - Fear of puppets.
14. Rhabdophobia- Fear of being severely punished or beaten by a rod, or of being severely criticized. Also fear of magic.
15. Scopophobia- Fear of being seen or stared at.

I can't believe I went through the entire list of phobias!
Taken from: http://www.phobialist.com/#A-



I wanna adopt a bunny! Chomby has one and it's adorable! But the adoption process is far too tedious, and I'm guessing my parents wouldn't allow me to.
www.hrss.net


Maltese! Aren't they just cute? :D I always see them in the Pet Safari at Eastpoint, but not today ):

My sister plans to buy a Yorkshire Terrier after she gets her 3rd month pay. It's totally fine with me! Maybe I'll sponsor her $100, who knows? ;)

Brown porridge for dinner today. Yummy.