I suck... lollipops.

Sometimes I really hate myself for my sucky self-confidence. Argh... Blame it on my primary school. Or rather blame it all on me for overloading on milo in my primary school days. Oh the chocolatey goodness yum.
I've been insulted, poked fun at, humiliated and hurt. I tell myself I'm fine now but then it all goes tumbling back down into the drain when a little setback pops up in my way. I try to fight it down but it's not easy. Not after something happens to you. Like for example you missing the ball during a fun game of captain's ball, and some guy on your team (who you thought was a nice friend) goes "YOU SO FAT DON'T PLAY LA!". Yeah laugh all you want, cause I don't think it's funny. It's been I think 5-6 years since that happened and I think the scar should be protruding and ugly by now, after its been healed then ripped apart time and again over the last few years.

I wanna stop this nonsense. I try to find people to help me, to salvage this. But when I do, they leave and throw me right back down to earth. Or maybe even through the multi-layers of the earth's crust. Or maybe a mile away from the earth's centre. I think I'd have died there anyway cause you know how hot the centre of the Earth is but WHAT AM I TALKING ABOUT?

Shit this low metabolism rate. Shit my diet plan in primary 6 which totally screwed up my growth. Shit this stupid 'confidence' of mine.

I'm beautiful and I know it...
nah... who am I kidding here?

TGIF!! ...which leads us closer to project deadlines :) Yippee how interesting!
おやすみなさい。

P.S.:日本語は楽しいですか。来週のテストはとても難しいと思いますよ :(　先生！助けてください！