Nooooo

All I want now is to pass.

And give it up already, things will never be the same as before. Things won't be alright. There won't be anybody there to listen to me. They're either too annoyed at me (cause when I feel terrible, I don't tell it, instead I try to compress it and it just comes out baaaaaad), or they're just sick of me. Things aren't so simple anymore. I don't have the time to sit down and talk anymore (like primary school days, oh man recesses were heaven) cause everybody's minds are filled with 'tuition later', 'test later', 'omgwtfbbq something's gonna happen'. I know I'm selfish but I would appreciate it if there was someone out there who would listen, and really listen. Cause whenever I'm getting to the ultimate point he/she will change topic/ get distracted etc.

Oh wth am I saying, what do I even want? I don't even know what's going on. Pssh. Nevermind, I'll go for my daily mood reset later.. I think an hour later. Or more. And it's 1.02am now. Heeheeeeee.

“Yesterday's the past, tomorrow's the future, but today is a gift. That's why it's called the present.” -Bill Keane

I just gotta treasure what I've now.

Hey look, the cup's half full! *Gulps* ...Now it's empty. Haha.
I can't believe I still have the time to blog hahahaah. I guess since no one's here for me, at least my blog is.

I'm sick of quarreling, I promise not to get into one again, cause all I'll do is to give in. If I get annoyed I'll slap myself/ bang my head against the wall if I have to, anything to stop myself from retaliating. It's better that way hee. (Sometimes I really get annoyed I can't help it either... But if you read one of my old old oldddd post, I once said that I'm the kind who flares up easily but cools down fast. Heh.) To hell with my pride, you're on the 'important to me' list now.

I swore never to think about anything relating to BGR stuff, and I'll keep to it. Ha but surprisingly as the days pass, the more I wanna see you. But wth, it's not like I'm able to. Maybe I'm just curious. Ha curiousity killed the cat. And trust me, it's nothing related to BGR thingy, though it sounds like it due to awkward sentence structures. My english reeks okay? :( I can't express myself properly in words too. It's like, some stuff I'm writing here aren't entirely true. I don't know. What. I. Want. Sheeeeeesh me.

I think I'm stupid. It's like my brain can't progress chunks and chunks of paragraphs. After like 1 line I start to drift away... What do I do what do I do what do I do?! And how many 'I's have I used in this blog post? Ha plenty. Sucks I don't want another blog post like this. Go pour cold water on yourself or something lisa.

You hurt me, allll the time. But rest assure, we both know it won't kill the friendship we have between us. I mean, what's a friendship without quarrels? :P

Then again, I hope nobody's faithful to my blog.